lol i never post!

I'm not even gonna bother and check when my last post was. Long enough ago i think i can safely say no one is reading this blog. which is nice. kinda makes it an outlet for me that's technically public, but private. :P

been out of school for about 2 1/2 weeks now. i've been working. that's basically it. working. and i haven't saved a dime... sad huh? that's basically the only reason i work during the summer... fail. again. that's depressing.
and i dont' want this post to be another emo i hate my life and i suck at everything i do post, so moving on.

my better half and i have finally hit 4 months! which doesn't seem like a lot, and compared to past relationships, it's peanuts, but it really is considerable in my mind! which doesn't explain why i didn't do anything for her... i dont' even know that i wished her a happy 4 months. as petty as 4 months may seem... the least i could've done is wished her a happy anniversary. i'm a sad prick.

it's nice being back with the family! back home, finally put all my clothes away today (meaning off the floor...). packed up a bunch of stuff i won't see till fall. I'm uber excited to move into my new house! myself and 4 other people are renting a house for the year. it's about 4 blocks from campus, (about 3 blocks from my girlfriend :D), has a HUGE driveway (free parking!!), and it's gonna be UBER cheap. It's a four bedroom house. I'm sharing the huge room with another guy, and we're splitting the cost of that room. it'll be $310 a month for me which is NOTHING in the U District. :D
but ya. that's my plans for the school year. :D financial aid package is looking really good too.
still not sure what i'm gonna do once i'm done. All of my friends will still be finishing up their Bachelor's. I should be finished in the spring, if not then summer. As of now i'm looking at two options.
1) Be done with school and enroll in a firefighting academy. Start volunteering and get certified as an EMT and try to get on as one. Apply and test EVERYWHERE there is any opennings whatsoever.
2) find a masters program i'm somewhat interested in (seeing as how i have yet to begin a program i have any interest in whatsoever in all of my academic career...) and finish up one of those. I'll be 20 when I graduate from college...

Honestly i wish one of these options stuck out to me more, but neither really do. A masters program would be just continuing what i've been doing my entire life. School. I'm used to it, i know it, it's familiar, and comfortable. Not to mention drop dead dull.... i really wish i had an interest in anything... i really do.
maybe its my attitude... i don't know... does someone consciously choose to enjoy something? or is it just that everything i do enjoy people either laugh at, or you can't "study" it. w/e
i've given up fighting this ridiculous system they call "higher education." the only thing higher about it is the tuition bills. anyone can get into college if they feel like it. i got into... 4? yes, it's more advanced, but it's like running. eventually, as you grow older, you get longer legs and you run farther and faster. No one is shocked or makes a big deal over the fact that a 12th grader can outrun a 6th grader. when you graduate from high school your brain can move faster and take in more info. it's no different and it takes no more effort that high school did if you put it to scale.

work has been someone mundane. the same thing over and over and over and over and over again.... my job requires no brain power whatseover. you get in trouble for being overly friendly and you get in trouble for not being talkative. but that's why i'm going to college right?... (see above...)

wow, for never posting i sure have a lot of nothing to talk about.

well, i'm gonna end it here. it's 2:11am and i'm actually planning on doing things tomorrow.
Night all!